Balance

So there are days I feel like I'm going non-stop. And honestly I struggle to find a balance. In my attempt to be a good stay at home mom and wife, I sometimes get carried away thinking this means perfection. I try not to underestimate what I am doing, but sometimes I feel unproductive. So this causes me to try and over compensate, and leaves me overextended and exhausted.

I know SAHM are no slackers, at least most of them, and I respect them tremendously, even more so now. But there is a certain flexibility SAHM tend to have that other occupations are not privy too. So this can lead people, much like myself, to believe their time is infinite. But the reality is they have just as much time in their day as any other person. And they have to manage is efficiently in order to get things done. Seems easy enough, right…

I also struggle with sharing the responsibly. I mean after all I was at home all day. I got a nap in, watched some shows, even read some articles. Yet, dinner isn't made, clothes haven't been washed, dishes haven't been done, floor isn't swept or mopped, and the list goes on. When both my husband and I worked we split the duties almost down the middle. But now that the baby is here and I'm home, somehow I feel like I should pull more weight. The problem is doing this, basically means never getting a break. Because let's face it, there is always stuff to be done. The list of things to do is never-ending.

And while I've almost got my Josi on a semi-effective schedule, there are days she is just thrown off; which means I am thrown off. Take today for instance I would love to have had dinner made, and tidied up my room. But someone decided to skip their morning nap. Which I thought meant she could go down earlier for her afternoon nap, which is usually 2 to 3 hours (YES!), but she didn't get the memo. She only slept an hour (I stole a 15-min nap during that time). I relocated thinking this would help her take a longer nap, eventually it did but only 1.5 hours later. Eventually she went down for her longer nap, an hour later than she normal does. By this time I had lost my steam to do much, so I opted to read articles and catch up on my shows. After 2 hours she was up and ready to eat, and well you get the picture. Sometimes I have the greatest intentions, but they never come to fruition because, honestly, I'd rather do something else.

So my new personal challenge is balance, wish me luck!