Life Updates

It's been way too long since I've blogged on here. And yes I've been watching a toddler and growing a new human, but that's no excuse. I'm going to do better.

New baby is estimated due date is January 28th. That's 3 weeks from now. (Although at this very moment feels like baby is trying to jump out of my stomach by sheer force.) I've been slowly preparing for his/her arrival (another surprise gender baby).  But this time around everything is so different. Having a toddler in tow doesn't allow certain pregnancy luxuries. But it has made the journey to this point move faster. Who can worry about how far along they are when you have someone to potty train and sleep train before a new member joins the household.

But even with a toddler distraction my birthing fears are becoming more real. With my 1st she never turned and I was preemclamtic, so an elective csection at 39 weeks was my birthing option. As most csection mom's know this is the recommended method going forward. But more moms in this position are trying vbac (vaginal birth after cesarean). I was gunho for this at the beginning then this baby seemed like they didn't want to turn, so I settled on another csection. But to my surprise at the  28 week ultrasound little bit had turned. Now I was faced with a choice. Csection or trial of labor? I won't bore you with the pros and cons. But everyday I feel something different about both lol. The biggest deciding factor now is my body's ability to prepare and start labor.

So we'll see what happens this time around. Ultimately just praying for a healthy delivery for mom and baby.

More to Come...

It's been a while. Last time I wrote on on here my baby was barely one. Now she's walking and talking, and can't be stopped. Time is flying. And now we're on our way to a family of 4. I'm so excited, but also tired. But more excited than tired. :D

Life updates

It's been a while...still getting used to this SAHM job. It's been so rewarding. But this winter has sucked. When we haven't been stranded the house because of the snow, we've been stuck here because we're sick. It's been such a roller coaster. And our colds seem to mutating faster than I can clean. Needless to say I can't wait for spring or at least a week without snow. I'll take whichever comes first. This weather is so isolating, one of the SAHM drawbacks. I try to get out when I can, which mostly depends on the roads and temperature. The cost of living up east.

In other news I'm planning a 1st Birthday party. At first I was opposed to the idea then I decided what not, only happens once. And while she won't know what's going on, we will. So we celebrate!! It's a bubble and dance party. I decided not to go character route cause she's not really a fan of must current shows. But she loves to dance so that's what we'll do. Pics to come!

Free Time

As I'm sure you know free time is at a premium when you become a mom. Which I don't mind...at times lol. Like now, little bit is napping, which means free time for mom. So I try to plan. My plan today was to try to get some blogging done. Yet I'd rather watch Netflix. Since she's only been sleeping 15 to 20 mins, doing something longer than that is out of the question. Like now, she's up. At least I blogged a little. Chow!

Stay Tuned

I know, I know. It's been too long. But I'm coming back soon.

Totally Freaking Out

So I'm sitting in my car doing this blog entry cause Josi is sleep. And rather than move her carseat and risk waking her I decided to sit in the car and get some things done.

So yesterday I hit a wall. I've been trying to stay positive and keep a stiff upper lip. But yesterday I was beat. Which I didn't realize until I was waking through Costco. My body was dragging and I had to admit it, I was tired. So instead of cleaning up last night as I had planned I sat...and watched TV. My dad is coming in town and I'd like to have things looking decent, at least. But I couldn't bring myself to do much of anything last night. I just wanted enough energy and time to sweep and clean the bathroom. Ugh!

To add to my issues, I haven't gone to the gym since Friday. For those like me letting count that's 5 days. So here's the deal with that...I'm tired. I know it's a lame excuse but it's all I got. I feel bad for not going. Especially because we're paying for it. And being on one income makes me more conscious of the way we spend money. So I feel motivated by that fact alone to go. But again I'm tired. You see I've been trying to go in the morning at 5 am as to not worry about Josi in the daycare. It's starting to get cold and people are getting sick and I'm trying to avoid that like the plague. So I avoid taking her around sick people which seems to be running through gym daycare, eek! Makes me cringe just thinking about it. Keep your sick kids home, and your sick tail home with them. Anywho, so going in the morning was working until Josi changed her schedule. So there's that, and the fact that I've lost my drive. I want to do better but I'm not motivated. And the thing that sucks is I've done this better. Two years ago I lost over 40 pounds with a modified diet and exercise. Then I was motivated, I had some ups and downs but I was a machine. I can't seem to get to that place at this moment. And that took its toll. *eyeroll*

She's close to waking up, so I'll end here. Good thing I did she just opened her eyes. :-)

Updates

Baby Update:

It's been way to long…almost a month. Baby girl will be 6 months Saturday. Part of me is loving the watching her in transition, the other part, just a small part, wants her to be content sleeping on the chest instead of trying to get her hand on everything. But I so thankful she is growing like she should be. I don't take it fro granted at all. She's scheduled for her six month shots tomorrow, hopefully it'll go as well as 4-month shots did.

Josi started eating solid foods. Everything was fine until she realized she could push the food back out with her tongue, or just take it out with her hands. And then rub it everywhere…

She also moved to her crib. She had been co-sleeping, which I was initially against, but it made things so much easier. There are so many schools of thought on this. I don't really care, I had to do what was best for me and my baby, the new theme of my life.

She also a bit of separation anxiety, we kind of both have it. She is aware when I'm in room or when I leave. And I like her to be in my sites at most times. To me this isn't a big deal, this seems normal. We go places and she socializes with other babies, so I'm not too nervous about her being a hermit.

Mommy Update:

I've started getting us involved in more mommy-baby activities. This has proven to be quite helpful, keeps us on a bit of a schedule, gives us something to look forward to day to day (and helps us meet other mommies and babies). I have to thank meetup.com and fb groups of local community activity. Social media can be so helpful sometimes.

I still am looking for personal outlets. I go to the gym I was taking her, but she wasn't doing too great in the gym, so I'm trying to get in the morning before my husband goes to work. This means I am at the gym before the sun fully rises…a mommy is tired…but I've got goals.

My health goals are simple, get ready for the next baby. I don't need abs, just to lose the weight I gained this pregnancy. And some of the weight I was trying to lose before I got pregnant lol.

So there you have it we're trying to find a pattern. But we're making it, and that's what really matters. God bless!